Thursday, July 09, 2009

i'm on an oatmeal only diet. haha. that's the only thing i have here in the house. so sad. but i think it'll be fine. i've been staying indoors a lot, and would just usually go out after midnight to hang out with the other night walkers.

so far, nothing big has happened. i'm on a retainer and will be working for cimc here from my house. just really excited that i'll be getting a wacom tablet soon. now if i can only afford a new laptop...haha, nevr mind about a new one, should just get this one checked and fixed. so all is going well, i think, with this job. i have to go to china again next month. i swear i will not overpack and i will not forget to bring a shoulder bag.haha.

i need to get a new mobile phone, seriously. my phone drops calls since the battery is like warped or something. haha. and the rubber band feature can't hold it together. the tapes also don't work anymore. haha. i feel sad. i love this phone. too many moments together. haha.

oh and i am seriously crushing on this guy. haven't met him yet, but he might come over in september. and baka he'll stay here. hala, ayan, eto na, normal na ulit ako. kasi i actually think someone is better-looking than the pajama man. eh haller! kamukha nya si brad pitt, pano ba naman ako di mag ka crush dun. ayan ha, dalawang pictures pa lang nakikita ko tapos mga kwento, hmft. puntahan ko na lang kaya sa san fo yun. haha. ang landi ko. ehehe. yeach, syempre hindi naman totoo yan. nagiinarte lang ako. kaya pag dating nya, kelangan lagi akong naka pants, kasi baka pag nagskirt ako, malaglag ang panty ko! haha. whatever. still hung up...damn...

still trying to figure out how to solve the financial crisis i'm in. grabe. slaving myself pero tig-hirap pa rin ako. kung pwede lang talaga magbenta ng laman, at ng taba syempre.

yoshee's preggy na. and yes, i heard that blythee is 8 months on the way din. am so happy. pero, oo, nadedepress ako!wah! pwede na bang mag curl up and die? was hoping that i'll be pregnant bu now din, unfortunately, wala pala sa plans yun. alin? yung to take me seriously? ahaha. korek. ang hirap noh, un masaya ka for the people you love, pero, malungkot ka for yourself. si joy kasi, nag FLAMES pa, at sweetheart daw yun sa guy, sa akin enemy, tapos friends lang daw kami, samantalang sila ni kcue, married! MARRIED!!!!ang daya... hikbi...hikbi...

ayoko na nga. sabi ko na nga ba, hindi talaga dapat ma-in love ever. at dapat din hindi dinidefine na "love" ang very strong emotions na "like" lang ang tinutumbok. hmft. hindi na ko maniniwala sa love love na yan. ang labo di ba, wedding invitations ang business ko pero sablay ako. sabi nga ni tyrone, gumawa ka ng "hate" card for every design you do, same motiff. haha. riot. meron din akong wedding invite design for me-and the pajama man. haha.pathetic. dapat sunugin na. ang cute cute pa naman nya, wah!!!

seriously, ang tagal naman ako maka get over, para kong tinapang balisa(super old maid di ba?). nakakainis kasi naman, namaster ko naman ang coping dati, bakit ngayon, ang tagal ng proseso ko. i hate it when it takes this long. kalahating taon na ha, hindi na cute. lampas kalahating taon na, sana sampalin na ko ng realidad! punyets!

pero sa totoo lang, hindi naman talaga makakalampas sa process kung di ko rin naman pabayaan ang sarili ko na magprogreso. bakit nga naman kasi kelangan pa mag karoon bigla ng ideals. yun lang. pag natatak na sa utak mo yung mga bagay na gusto mo, ang hirap makaabante.

sana yumaman na lang ako para makalimutan ko ang mga issues ko na walang kwenta. oo, juvenile na ko. hmft. at oo, totoo na umiyak ako kanina kahit nag papatawa pa rin ako. seryosong malungkot naman talaga. at pagyumaman na ko, magyoyoga na lang ako araw araw. bow.


1 comment:

ten said...

at least hung up ka sa isang taong madaling ipakilala sa buong pamilya. ako, hindi! nilalait and lalaitin. huhuhu.

haha. wait for the phone, keh?? i hope around the 21st anjan na. and pabili ka na lang ng laptop kay jay. mukang dumadami pera eh. hahaha