Saturday, December 22, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Monday, October 22, 2007
a. it is unreasonable to rent.work is near and accessible.
b. they prefer that we can be around to help out.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
painting a red brick wall. i mean, i am making a painting of a red brick wall. i like dead ends. they tell you that you are getting no where.
my eyelids feel weird. they have a need to rest, but i can't make them. it's all bright outside. there are birds singing. and there are people walking. i can all hear them. i hate mornings. everything seems to be so bigger than life. maybe it's because of restlessness. i hate it when i hear the neighbor sweeping leaves. it anoys me to hear tricycles roaring. i hate mornings.
i wish i slam into that certain brick wall that will hurt me so much that it'll stop me dead on my tracks. i just want to stop now. i feel really tired of pushing myself. oh good heavens, i need to sleep, i need my senses back.
i need to do what i must do.
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Friday, September 28, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Friday, September 14, 2007
1. The next person you'll hold handswith...will it mean anything?- malamang friends lang kami. haha
2. Have you kissed somebody in the last2 weeks?- nope. uhm, beso beso lang eh. friends ko.
3. Who was the last friend you had inyour room?-joy ata
4. Miss someone?- my family
5. How's your ex doing?- he's skinny as always haha
6. Is there someone you want to fight?- nope
7. Do you like someone right now?- shempre
8. Song playing?- sweet surrender, sarah maclachlan
9. What are you doing tomorrow?- waht will you do tomorrow ang taman tanong.tatatmbay anu pa ba
10. Do you know what sodomy is?- of course
11. What's annoying you right now?- wala naman
12. Do you want to go back to highschool?- AYAW KO NA, TAMAD NA KO MAG ARAL NG MATH
13. Have you ever watched a movie drunk?- uhm, wasted nga eh
14. What are you doing tonight?- grocery shopping
15. Who did you ride in a car with last?- marl and bong
16. Are you tired?- yes, of doing nothing
17. Who will you be with today/tomorrow?- si ate chel malamang
18.What kind of socks do you have on?- am not wearing any
19. What color is the shirt you are wearing?- blue and orange
20. What will you do on sunday?- CHURCH
21. Last person to call you?- ate chel!
23. Does your family own any mansions?- ahahahhaha
24. Do you have any interesting bruises or scars?- none, lahat sila boring
25. Where were you at noon today?- home, eating mechado
26. How long does it take you to get ready to go out?- an hour or 2 kasi i keep the tv on and i lose track of the time
27. Have you been outside of the U.S.?- i am!
28. The last text you received on your mobile was from?- mikkey mousey
29. Last show you watched?- eat bulaga walang kakupas kupas
31. Do you wish at 11:11?- bakit?
32. Do you wear any jewelry?- earrings madalas
33. Next vacation you're going on?- cocobeach in a few weeks daw
35. Do you have any piercings?- ears, 2 useful 2 useless. hehe
36. Last person you hugged?- are wini
37. The last time and place you went out to?- i a;ways go out to hang out sa crib hehe
38.What made you angry today?- wala naman.
39. Do you sing in the shower?- yup. i sound good in the shower. haha
40. Has anyone ever sang or playedmusic for you personally?- errr, ewww, wag na nating pag usapan ang kabaduyan ng mga nabuhay sa 90's
41. Do you love anyone?- shemps!
42. Have you ever had sex? When's the last time?- ahahahhahaha. that was so funny.
43. What's your fav. breed of dog?- i'm bias, mahal ko si cyrus
45. Do you find yourself loved?- yep
46. Called anyone a bitch today?- yung aso ko, si kyla. haha
47. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?- i dunno. sa kama ng stranger. hahahah
48. What's the closest blue object toyou- my shirt
49. What is your natural hair color?- blAck
50. What are you excited for?- wala eh. bored ako.
said yes to friends for a trip to cocobeach on the first week of october. if it will alleviate my disposition, why not. may nudist beach daw dun-yan ba bnaman gamitin pang convince sa akin! eh anu naman.weh.
goin up and down. not good.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Sunday, July 15, 2007
i work my ass off all day and i get home to an empty house, and i entertain myself by washing the dishes. i remember the last time i fought this off, i kept on working and working out and tried not to sleep thinking work can really kill me. i don't want to whine and complain about the same things over and over again...i can't do anything about a lot things anyway. hay...
all i can do is wait.
i just want to walk away. everyday, i see imperfections and i just want to stop. i am the source of my discouragement. but i want to keep it to myself because they never seem to understand how this is for me. they don't have the slightest idea how i feel.
i only look forward to one thing and if it comes, i'll say goodbye to all of these.
please, do come.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Monday, July 09, 2007
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
ayan, kakanood ng house.
oh well. just tired i guess.
galit pa din ako. pwede ba.
Monday, June 04, 2007
posted a wanted ad. got these messages after posting my number. ehehhe.
msg 1: gud am poh...jst wnt 2 ask 4 d opning of d shp,coz ur searchng 4 d postion of service crew?is it qualify 4 u if im a frsh colege grad?
thing i wanted to reply with : uhm, i got lost somewhere there. r u trying to tell me something? hmmm...it would be easier if i did acttually finish college...oh wait! oh...no...
msg2(same guy):alrght then sir...will i put my pic and wat is it size...
thing i wanted to reply with: i still think u r actually trying to tell me something...
msg3:i wl do apply 4 ur shp...ok sir
thing i wanted to reply with: ohhh...un lang pala eh
msg:gud aftrnun! im *******, one of the applicants of crib, just wntd 2 ask if its necessary required to complete all the requirements or its ok to carry on my resume first. thnx nd hve a great day
me dapat: hindi ka naman redudndant 'no? but sige, carry on
msg1:hi poh, im *********. pwd poh b aqng mag aply sain u? may exprience nah poh aqoh!
me dapat: eh anung pake ko? ako din eh!
msg:mgt2nong poh zna akoh kng 2mtangap p pog kau ng zervice crew!hrm graduate poh akoh!txtbck poh plz!
me dapat: hanep, nahirapan ako dun ah. teka, barkada tyo?
msg:hi madam, gudluk samen, tnx.Poh
me dapat: close tyo??
msg:gud eve poh,im ************ dz iz my#.evn f u cal meh,
me dapat: promise, yan ang number mo kahit tumawag ako???
ahahahhah...we're opening a cafe soon. malapit na. ayun un eh. sana lang wag ako makarma. ahahahha!!
my crib opens soon. will update you.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Monday, May 28, 2007
tama na yan. ok na yan. raens lent me razi's frogeye eh hindi pa napprint kaya good luck. wala naman makita sa ilalim ng dagat, puro tubig at buhangin. hehe. sana pala nag snorkeling kame kaso 2 lang un goggles and snorkles, mejo mahirap un di ba.hmmm. ang liliit ng bangka dun sa pinuntahan namin, parang tricycle lang. pero ayus na rin. mejo madrama kasi kasama ko mga friends ko from the village. at first time namin to ha. hehe. well, i had a nice time. sobra. sayang lang, may partition. may hostilities kasi eh. tsk tsk.
oh well. nakakainis. pag may mga kaibigan kana di marunong makinig. parang walang respeto syo.
muntik na ko pumunta sa baba kahapon. just had the thing to cry and cry and cry. parang walang makausap. para kasing walang makikinig. i texted blythe and she called. sabi kasi ni lemuel, mahirap na madepress ako at nadadagdagan ang tao sa mundo. the last time kasi, nabuo si tamtam. weh. may jitters ata ako. or ganun talaga pag walang pera. ewan ko, was just a little lonely kahapon. tapos dad called pa. nakausap ko din si mum and si ali. ako pa naman, nababaliw pag walang kausap. gusto ko pa naman ng ganun. un daldal ng daldal. pucha, pati telenovela, papatulan ko na. kelangan ko na ata magpatattoo. weheheh.
alam mo un? ung anjan na pero bitin...
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
still hafta do tons of work. lay outs, price lists, accounting, meeting with people...hay...at hihirit pa ko mag swimming beach sa thursday. ilusyonada, wala na ngang pera. hehehe. sabagay, yun na lang naman ang kaligayahan ko, ang magpaka sirena sa dagat. tapos, pagbalik, bubulagain na naman ako ng realidad at marerealize ko na naman na sana di na ko nagpunta kasi sayang ang pera! pupunta kami sa potipot islan. niyaya ko nga si tyrone, pero ayaw daw nya dun kasi mabaho ung pangalan, parang bird shit. wakokokokok.
praning na naman sa friday night.
i miss my family. oo nga pala, i had this moment a few days ago, parang madedepress ako. sabi ni mikkey, baka daw it comes with age. hmft. wala lang, parang napaka absent lang ng lahat ng mahal ko. naghahanap kasi ako ng kausap nun, kaya lang wala eh. ay, kawawang bata...i miss mum and dada sobra...it would be so nice if i can hear the familiar voices. kasi naman, it sometimes can get so quiet here na i can hear the voices in my head. haha. no, really.
i'd give up anything to be able to hear...
Saturday, May 19, 2007
last night, polin called. i think we stayed on the phone for almost an hour. had a lot of catching up and chismis. she told me that her friends from work know me as si abba, ung salbahe. wah! eto daw kasi un winner lines ko:
me: wow, mumai(another ex officemate) ,and ganda ng hair mo, anung ginawa mo?
mumai: nagpa cellophane ako
me: kaya pala mukha kang yema
me: mumai, ang sexy mo talaga shaka ang ganda ganda mo na
me:sana wag kita maging kamukha
me(to someone else): wow, ***, ang galing naman, TL(team leader) ka na, di ka pa nga magaling!
TL: alam ko naman na maraming di bilib sa akin eh
TL: naman eh...
me: halika nga hug kita...(my chair rolls over her toes)
me: sorry na nga, lika hug kita...ang dami mo naman, di ka kasya sa arms ko...
marami pa daw yan, di ko na kasi maalala. oo na, inaamin ko na, masama talaga ang ugali ko. oh well, alam naman nila na mahal ko sila.
ang saya saya. in a week or two, matatapos na un project ko. still, i dont wanna jinx it. will post photos soon.
byeee, pinapatulog na ko ng asawa ko
Thursday, April 19, 2007
target date: may 15. if things go well, you'll know by then.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
sitting in the middle of the room feels like floating in the middle of the sea. huge waves do not drown me but rather make me feel sick. it's like being churned unendlessly, without any definite direction, without any control. there's salt in my mouth.
and i try to make myself better now after i have decided to write my own fiction. and sometimes i dream that it's true. but being here, right now, i still have questions. and whether this will end soon or not, following my plot still gets me nowhere.
and i do not feel anything. but i wait still.
so' i'll be a barista or something. why not? can't you feel the excitement?
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
You and I
Ah, the calm below that poisoned the river wild
You and I
Tears that dry on a rude awakened child
Where you look down
I’ve walked before
With eyes of liquid brown
If we had only known
In a way
We wouldn’t reach this ground
You were my only home
I want to see you shine
And we will feel the weight
Fall away from us in time
Searching our past for the true
You and I, you and I, you and I
All for you
Where you think you’ll fall
I adore you
Where you shut your soul
I will open for you
If we had only known
In a way
We’d never reach this ground
I can see us shine
I said, we will feel the weight
Fall away from us in time
Searching our past for a true
You and I, you and I, you and I
All for you.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
yehey! drove my car sa langka tree while trying to avoid a bamboo fence na natumba. hanep.
i just love it.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Thursday, March 08, 2007
both mikkey and i were surprised that his package came today. haha. he sent me two lovely sarongs and a cute little teddy which has a lop-sided face due to being stuck inside a spongebob paper bag and had to endure travel. he smells like my baby. ang cute cute nya sa totoong buhay.
thank you, hunnybunnypiggeywiggey. mwah.
been pretty busy, mostly because i'm stressing myself out sa school, when i actually don't really go to work. and when i do, i just pretend to work. haha. well, i guess i just think too much. but i'm pretty much happy kahit na walang pambayad ng bills. i'm cool.
i just hope un raket ko would pay well.
Friday, February 23, 2007
i shouldn't be too whiney because
i definitely have no right to go pmsing
baog ako at pangarap lang ang magkaperiod. wahahah.
and that my fears are all imaginary.
i have an imaginary bank account. ahahahah.
and i have the weirdest imagination ever. hahahah.
as i always say,
every emotion is just a state of mind.
and i am very creative.
guess what i am thinking about?
that is so weird.
and now i have an idea.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Saturday, February 17, 2007
don't you want it?
yeah, i do.
i mean, really, really want it?
why just that?
i've grown up.
and so how are we today? oh, i've been busy, tired, lonely, and quiet. just tonight my feet started hurting. i got cold feet. i don't really like myself too much today. i have been spreading myself too thin, exhausting my energy.
i'm in my drama queen mode tonight. do i need to be?
i'll just see gregory house now.
Friday, February 16, 2007
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Sunday, February 11, 2007
had little time to cry. i actually didnt have to. why cry? they are far away, yes, but family stays in one's heart.
it took me a lot of effort though to take out the toothbrushes they left from the bathroom. these are supposed to be fixtures in one's home. it made me shiver.
it's really quiet. i don't even turn on the tv. the only noise i make is from the ipod.
oh well. i can't write yet. so i'll go now.
Monday, February 05, 2007
2 lg. garlic cloves, minced
1/4 c. soy sauce
1/4 c. water
1/4 c. honey
2 tbsp. vegetable oil
1 tbsp. cornstarch
1 lb. boneless, skinless chicken breast, cut into strips (that's a little more than half a kilo. shempre magconvert ka mag-isa mo)
1/4 c. chopped spring onions
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Two nights ago, I dreamt of this place filled with weird people. Well, normal people actually, but somewhat rowdy. I went into this big communal bathroom and a girl kissed me. She was older and lesbian, but the lipstick type. After she kissed me, she made me kneel down and she made me open my mouth. She covered her hand with cloth, felt like terry cloth, dark pink. She put her hand in my mouth, palm up. I felt her drilling her nail into my upper palette and it hurt a lot. I could feel her tear through the hard palette. I could taste blood in my mouth. I pushed her away and she made a weird comment I can’t remember. She kinda told me that I looked surprised because I thought she want capable of doing that or something.
I woke up from the dream running away from someone else. And a sore lip because the skin cracked.
Today, I woke up because I was being attacked by rabid cats. Death to all cats.
Yesterday, I went around with dad. We went to banks and the lending people and the contractors. We didn’t meet up with the ticketing agent because PAL’s server is down. They still don’t have tickets and they’re supposed to leave on the 6th. Oh well. We went to the SSS office in Pasig but their server was also down, too. PLDT’s fault, I guess. We didn’t accomplish much, but ended up having coffee and banoffee pie in Starbucks in the Tiendesitas area. I drove home and had to listen to dad tell me what to do and which lane I should be in. haha. Oh, I will miss him.
Got home early and spent a few hours tweaking my blog and chatting with russ and hunny. I’m thinking of reworking on how I blog so dad could read it when he’s far away na from his favorite daughter. Weh. Joke lang un. He’s banned pa din! Haha!
Cheenee came over with an ice cream cake from haagen-dazs. Yummy.
Went to the studio and worked on a company profile. Will tell you about it in time. Baka maudlot and everything. We don’t want that to happen now, don’t we? Napilitan tuloy si mikkey to stay up and make kwento while I work. Antukin kasi. Went to sleep as soon as hunny said goodnight a little before midnight kasi naluluha na daw sha everytime mag yawn sha. Hehe. Aga. Amazing.
I woke up a little early than the usual today. Because I lost a sock and my right foot got cold. Fell asleep again after I got comfy. And woke up again text messages kept coming in. And yeah, because of the filthy cats.
Yesterday, when we were in the SSS office, we met with a family friend. She works there so it should’ve been easy for us to get the IDs if it weren’t for the tech problems. She started commenting on how I’d be happy with mum and dad away. Well, dad said he knows. Probably felt that I need space, too. Honestly, I am feeling weird about the whole thing already. When we got home, I hugged Ali and told her that I’ll miss her and I started crying.
Happy birthday, tyrone, na hindi binabasa ang blog ko!
Salamat for lunch.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Friday, January 26, 2007
this was said a few minutes before davis proved jumar wrong. oh the things that happen when there are kids around.
do you have any idea how tiring it is to spend 5 days with kids not your own? well, for one thing, it wasn't too bad, but i swear i can do another week without seeing any of them.
the camp went well. no major accidents, just a few scraped knees and a few heads got bumped while swimming. i slept mostly during the afternoons. it rained everyday as expected. everyone was agreeable and only a handful threw tantrums. the food was greasy and i think i gained weight. the weather didn't help burn the calories.
well, i had fun. and i'm sure the kids did, too.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Thursday, January 18, 2007
kanina hunny ate chicharon and started making kwento about the owner of the business. he actually met na daw the person who owns it, well, family business yun pala. sabi niya madami nga na bright ideas ang mga people but walang pang-capital.
naalala ko tuloy dati, mga 4 years ago siguro, si gela and camille gusto mag business. we always talked about it nun during sleepy hours, after class. cafe daw. eh ako lagi nagcocomplain kasi mahirap mag run ng ganun. uso na nun ung mga hotel sa japan na capsules na lang instead of rooms. so sabi sabi namin ni gela, ganun na lang ang business namin. sa tapat ng ateneo namin bubuksan, para sa mga students. dapat parang maliliit na horizontal cubicles haha may AC, pillows, blankets, and pipe-in music. and pwede ka pa magpawake-up call. shempre un rates, pang atenista. eh panu daw kung un driver? meron din rates. 10 pesos per hour, banko shaka dyaryo. may electric fan naman. o kaya pwede din, horizontal sila, dyaryo at floor. haha! nakow, yayaman kami nun!
haha. oh the need to be horizontal...
hosted a children's party, face- painted, and made the kids play games. nag laro kami ng "bring me". i asked for a yellow balloon. biglang napuno ng balloon ang face ko. i turned away, and a balloon stick poked me right in the mouth, i laughed so hard napaupo ako hahahha! mga abnormal na kids. mental note: keep your mouth shut if there are balloons on sticks around you. grabe, it's tiring talaga, making the kids listen, hearing screams habang naglalaro, and dodging flying kids. haha.
tomorrow, punta kami sa ortigas to apply for work. instead of doing the cover letter i need, i asked hunny to make one for me. kanina kasi i thought i won't have free time. really, i am tired and blogging relaxes me. and honestly, i hate making business letters. di talaga ako madunong ng ganyan. make me write papers for literature class, okay lang. but business letters, they sound emotional pag ako gumawa haha!
ok bye now, i need to rest muna. my foot hurts.